AWAKE I AM 

 

            Jairus had a dying twelve year old girl. He believed Jesus (Jeshua) could heal her. He found the Master in downtown Jerusalem and persuaded Him to make a house call. On the way, Jeshua turns abruptly and says, "Who touched me?" A brave woman who would have been forbidden to even use the street, had reached out and grabbed Jeshua's robe! She tells the crowd how she was just delivered of twelve years of misery.  

            The text says, "She told ALL." You know how that goes - an old woman and a disease? It may have taken half an hour to tell all. Meanwhile, poor Jairus is patiently losing his daughter. Before they can get back on the road again, a servant tells Jairus his girl is dead. In a heartbeat, Jeshua turns and says to him, "Fear not, only believe!!"

             Jesus!  Why don't you just tell us the meaning of life in four words or less?  

            Jeshua continues to Jairus' house and yada, yada, arrives at the bed of a sleeping girl. Or a dead girl, depending on your altitude. To the mortals, she was dead. To the Immortal, she has to be asleep. The Father in Jeshua didn't have to use any effort to wake her up. He said, "Get up, girl." and she opened her eyes. It may have been harder to awaken a child from normal sleep.  

            The woman in the street was essential to the story of the girl's resurrection. What is the symbolism of a woman with an issue of blood? It means there is no hope of a child. When the woman has had continuous hopelessness for twelve years, we are looking at a picture of the hopeless attitude of humanity. Our enjoyment of Life is tainted with the seemingly inevitable event of our death. The dis-ease is not the moment we lose our body. The thought of death is a condition that may keep us from ever living. We are not just dealing with the suffering of one woman and the death of one girl. Since the issue of blood began the year the girl was born, you know they are connected. In the higher realms of the spirit, the child that is wanting to come forth is the one that not only will not die, but will not have "death consciousness"! If Jeshua could live in a physical body, yet have authority over the concept of death, so can we. He could not have been crucified if he didn't allow death to take him. How do we enter that place as we fulfill the promise that we shall be just like Him?

            In the realm this woman and child lived in, we are born to die. To stop the pattern of death one must realize Christ consciousness and believe without fear. To grasp eternal life consciousness in your daughter you must also believe without fear. The daughter we are talking about is the beautiful creature you will be transformed into when you awaken from the dream where death is real.  

            There is a mysterious principle in which the Supreme Being considers darkness to be as light. Could that One also consider death to be life? There is a death that is actually essential to life. A physical being has as many cells dying as there are new ones being born. Ever wonder how your digestive juice (hydrochloric acid) can dissolve a steak but doesn't dissolve your stomach lining? Well, it does dissolve it. Your stomach is being "eaten" on the inside, and reincarnated from the outside at such a rate as to give you a completely new stomach every five days! Our bones give the appearance of stability, yet every cell in our skeleton is replaced every three months. Your entire body is never more than two years old. The constant new life would not be possible without constant death. The paradox is: To keep the living organism the same, it must be in a state of continuous transformation.  

            When Paul of Tarsus talked about dying daily, he touched on the spiritual version of the death we just discussed. One cannot expect to become a new creature unless the old creature dies. This is not a one-time event as Christians are prone to assume. They generally believe they were born again once. They were baptised in the Holy Spirit once. They hope to be resurrected once.

            Every day - even every hour, we can experience a transformation from one being to another. Then just as quickly, the new man becomes the old man and is replaced by a new child again ...and again ...and again. When we become a new being, we simultaneously move into a new universe. Our personal universe is a mirror image of who we are. When the belief system of the individual is death-oriented, the world, including the body-temple, succumbs to that belief. It must be equally possible to believe in the immortality of the Self and live in an immortal universe. Our bodies are made up of fragile cells, but the cells are made up of atoms that are billions of years old. The atoms consist of an energy that is eternal! 

            I would not contend that my human form should last forever. I wouldn't want it to. I want to enter a new form when one is prepared for me. This body, like this universe, is a mirror image of my level of consciousness. If I become aware of my immortal self, I believe without fear (doubt) that regardless of what departs from, or reappears in the mirror, I will remain forever. Christ-consciousness is the awareness of your eternal identity.           

            "Awaken, thou that sleepest and Christ (consciousness) will give thee light." Christ said Jairus's daughter was sleeping. There's another story of a man named Adam who also went to sleep. This time it was called a deep sleep and is synonymous with a trance. Were Adam and Jairus' daughter in the same trance? Is man in a hypnotic state where it was suggested that he could die? How could death ever be experienced? If I experience it, I cannot be dead. If I am aware of anything, even after losing my body and intellect, I am not dead. If I aint aware of anything, I aint there. When awareness is present, I am present. No awareness? No I. Therefore, I AM awareness.  

The Black Dog 

            What if a hypnotist put a man in a trance and convinced him that a black dog was chasing him everywhere he went. How foolish this poor fellow would look running from a dog that wasn't there. But what if the whole world was put under the same hypnotic trance? Now the illusion is reinforced by others. Comparisons would be made between dogs. Some would go to college to study dog behavior and earn a degree in Dogology. Some would become experts in Dogma. You would have doctors and preachers counseling others on how to protect themselves from the dog. How to overcome the dog. How to rebuke the dog. How to crucify the dog, control the dog, or take authority over the dog. And if none of that works... how to forgive the dog!         As humorous as this may sound. It's solemnly serious. You see, if at any time during the counseling the counselor's dog shows up . . . . he will abandon you and run for it. 

            The truth is, no one who is in the same trance can help. They will only reinforce the belief in the dog and give power to it. It takes someone who is not hypnotised to snap his fingers and say, "Wake up! There is no black dog."  Awaken, thou that sleepest and Christ will give thee light. Christ means annointed one. The ritual of annointing involves the pouring of oil over ones head. Oil was a symbol of power since it was the fuel used in lamps. The annointing would be the power which brought enlightenment. It came down from a higher source and covered the annointed one. Such a one would not be the person who appears, but the person who poured his substance into the one who appears. Jesus claimed that everything he said, did, thought, and otherwise manifested had nothing to do with him, but was an outpouring of the invisible One. Jesus was only a container for the omnipotent One who was able to move out of the invisible, through the individual, into the physical. When we are not acting in our mortal role as a transient lifeform and are speaking from the immortal Self that we really are, we are awake at last. Our body, mind and even our personality is merely the bottle that holds the anointing oil.

             The bible doesn't say that Adam was ever awakened from the trance. Whoever, or whatever Adam is symbolic of, Duality began immediately after the trance unfolded. The androgenous Adam separated into he-Adam and she-Adam. The Tree of Knowledge of Good & Evil (Judgment) sprouted all the pairs of opposites. Finally, the Adam Family was separated from the Tree of Eternal Life. Every aspect of this separated universe is unfolding within the trance. Skip ahead to the last two chapters of the book of Revelation and you will witness the awakening of all things to the realization of Unity and the irrepressible Wholeness that has always been here beyond the illusion of Duality. Yes, even the Unity of God and man. Isn't the temple removed and only the Lord left as the totality of all things? The One who is the same yesterday, today and forever cannot become all things. But the realization of Wholeness has the power to awaken those who sleep the deep sleep of separation.

             Is this experience of separation an evil thing or an undesirable error. Not at all! We chose to have this experience. When we were hidden in the Elohim, in the Creators whose image and likeness we bear, we were missing something. (Not another paradox!) Everything we behold has been, up to this point a paradox. It shouldn't surprise us that Wholeness was missing an important aspect of life. What would our human experience be without hidden secrets to uncover. What would this life amount to without something to learn? How would we learn without struggle and effort? How could we find ourselves unless we first lose ourselves? Omniscience cannot have a secret. Omnipotence cannot put forth effort for there is nothing to push against. Omnipresence cannot find itself because there's no place to hide. Imagine spending eternity as the Know-all and Be-all of the universe. There would be no learning, no adventure, no surprises, no discovery. Existance would be as unstimulating as the joke you already heard. Omniscience would be an eternal hell of pure boredom. To be All-powerful would mean you are in a constant state of rest. Have you noticed you cannot arm wrestle yourself? Do you think Omnipresence is any fun? If you were everywhere that was, there would be no place to move - you would already be there. A truly Omnipresent being would live as if buried alive in a cosmic cave-in unable to move. Is there an absolute Consciousness that has this dreadful awareness? We gave these "qualities" to that which we call God. Are we in error or does God have to live like this? 

            These are all ideas born of the thinking mind. They may have validity, they may be wild illusions. But if absolute Consciousness was in this terrible state, it would explain why It deliberately went to sleep and dreamed worlds within worlds (within itself), created countless separate beings, separate realities and multiple possible truths (still within itself). To escape Omniscience, It would have to have amnesia. To actually use It's infinite power it would have to create two from The One. And to move about and learn, and have adventures and surprises, it would have to give small parts of itself a seemingly separate awareness, a partial awareness. The unknown part of Itself would be the breathing space and the elbow room It desperately needs. But within the layers of peculiarity, there would always lie the seed of commonality with the Whole. Each part would be driven by an unexplainable obsession to find that seed in all the other parts. The process of discovering yourself (your Self) in another would involve stripping off the layers of disguise that you yourself put on, hoping to see the real Self beneath the mask of another.  

            What we see in another depends on us, not on the other guy. If we are nonjudgmental, that is what we see around us. If we are critical, we find ourselves in a critical world. Is one way better than another? Both roads lead to the same end - Self discovery. But the smell of the roses along the way can be most diverse. Is one aroma better than another? It is, in the final analysis, the variety that makes life rich and exciting. We are having this physical experience to know the pain of life as well as the pleasure. We wouldn't feel pleasure if we didn't contrast it with pain. If we were somehow subjected to a constant feeling of ecstacy, over time we would no longer feel it. To be stimulated by anything, it has to come and go and then come again. That's why we live on a roller coaster. That's why the "evil" dream is as important as the "good" dream. So when you feel like crying - cry. When you feel like screaming - scream. Have the experience you came here to have. But don't despair in these experiences. After all, they are a trance that will not hurt the real you any more than a bad dream will affect your waking world. The day will come when the dream is over and you fully awake to the discovery of your true Self. If you find yourself where there's nothing more to learn, no problem to solve, and nowhere to go . . . you'll probably decide to take another nap.

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